Something Inside.

If you are someone like me, you have a lot of different feelings all the time. Sometimes, these are feelings that stay inside of you forever, refusing to leave even though you try to push them out as hard as you can. Anticipation is such a strong feeling, to me this is like waiting for something you're not sure is going to happen.

Anticipation is in us, and sometimes we fail to realize. We wait and wait, anticipating something great we really want to happen, and then...it doesn't happen and we are left with sorrow. A lot of search for someone, to make us happier than we normally are, we look and look and look and sometimes we come up empty handed. We only have one question, and that question is why?

Our search for someone or something that makes us happy is never ending. The anticipation for something amazing in our lives never goes away, it sticks to us like glue. Its always in the back of your mind, refusing to leave. Im starting to think maybe this is me just being my weird old self, but i cant be sure. For my friends that know me, they know how i am, how i think, how i act towards different things. I really wish i could just let go of my worries and anticipation for my wants. I wish i could look at things on the brighter side, i really want to.

I should just be happy im alive, instead of letting my worries and wants flood through me every day.

Matthew 6:31-32
Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing? For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.