Catchy title eh? It goes along with our culture pretty well i think. It's something that has jumped out at me not too long ago, its also a question that needs to be answered. Why Do our lives constantly revolve around the glorification of sex.
Sure its been around since man has been placed on this earth by God, but are we making it out to be something that we think we need more that just a want? Many people in my age group, ages younger and above have this strong sexual desire, to pretty much plow anything that they think is attractive (men and women). It's heart breaking to see how much it takes control of us, how it destroys us, it was meant to be beautiful and completely meaningful. Instead of that, it turned into a casual activity you can have with a friend, in my own opinion i don't like that. God made it to be something amazing and heartfelt between a married couple, its not supposed to be the thing you do in highschool because you think you love someone. Ask yourself that question as well, what does love really mean?
It's seen everywhere, and its pretty much impossible to escape, it takes focus to keep yourself from sex before marriage. I think i have it in, but of course ive came through my share of struggles with it, but with Gods help i was able to overcome.
The frustration part of the title comes from how frustrating it is to watch our generation (believers and non believers) crave sexual desires like rabid animals. I wanna see people withhold from it, save things like that for marriage, but i feel like that has long passed many of us.
To keep this hopeful, i wanna say you can do anything with God with you, somethings will always be filled with struggle, but you as a believer can do it. Put faith in God and now the things this world throws at you (sex being one of them).
Carry on and overcome, pray and love God like he loves you. Dont let a sin like this over take you.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Be The Change
In today's world where hope is slowly being lost through everything that you see around you that is worldly, people are losing faith in what matters the most, and what matters the most is following God. Where we all live we face hard decisions and temptation everyday, many of us accept living a half fulfilled life where you're only a follower at church or when things start looking bad. My question to those people is, why would you turn your back on someone who loves you so much.
God loves you, and there is no if or buts in that statement. God sent his son to die on a cross for YOU, yes you. As followers of God, we have been given guidelines to follow, but some people decide they want to pick and choose what to believe and they call it right. We shouldn't live lukewarm where we say Jesus you are everything than two seconds later have sex with someone that you aren't married to, or drink and party till we arent even functional. With me saying this, im not looking down on anyones decisions but instead being disappointed at the choices they are making. Holding out on the temptations we want so bad will pay off later, instead of thinking everyone sins and you cant stop, think about what you follow and resist the sin or at least try.
We need a strengthened people filled with Jesus, us as followers need to stop living where we think sin is okay, and we can do whatever we want. When you accepted Jesus, you accepted Gods will, now let it be done instead of fighting it. Do not be ashamed of your faith, do not worry about your friends, your pride or how much money you're going to have or even what you look like. Instead worry about how you're going to spread God word in this dying world. Destroy your pride, destroy anything that stands in the way of YOU living for God. We are here to live for him, now lets start acting like it.
“Put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be“Put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.” Ephesians 4:22-24
God loves you, and there is no if or buts in that statement. God sent his son to die on a cross for YOU, yes you. As followers of God, we have been given guidelines to follow, but some people decide they want to pick and choose what to believe and they call it right. We shouldn't live lukewarm where we say Jesus you are everything than two seconds later have sex with someone that you aren't married to, or drink and party till we arent even functional. With me saying this, im not looking down on anyones decisions but instead being disappointed at the choices they are making. Holding out on the temptations we want so bad will pay off later, instead of thinking everyone sins and you cant stop, think about what you follow and resist the sin or at least try.
We need a strengthened people filled with Jesus, us as followers need to stop living where we think sin is okay, and we can do whatever we want. When you accepted Jesus, you accepted Gods will, now let it be done instead of fighting it. Do not be ashamed of your faith, do not worry about your friends, your pride or how much money you're going to have or even what you look like. Instead worry about how you're going to spread God word in this dying world. Destroy your pride, destroy anything that stands in the way of YOU living for God. We are here to live for him, now lets start acting like it.
“Put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be“Put off your old self, which belongs to your former manner of life and is corrupt through deceitful desires, and to be renewed in the spirit of your minds, and to put on the new self, created after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness.” Ephesians 4:22-24
“Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.” Romans 12:2
Monday, June 20, 2011
Take Another Step
This week has thrown me many curve balls you could say, but through the tough of things im finding out i can learn from anything bad. I mean you can learn anything from a bad situation, from learning how to deal with something new to just letting the situation bring you closer to God.
Earlier this week, i met someone who im actually becoming pretty good friends with it, but it didnt start as just friends. I started talking to her, and i began to fall for her, pretty hard actually. Even though i barely knew her i still had those feelings. Now, i only hung out with her once, and it was amazing and everything i wanted it to be, but it ended up not working a day or so later. She ended up liking someone else, which now i am completely okay with but at the time i wasnt too happy.
That night i stayed up all night thinking about things and walking home from my friends house at 5:30 in the morning to catch a sunrise. After sleeping and waking up later in the day my emotions were just a wreck. i felt like being alone, i felt like i wasnt wanted by anyone, so i layed in in continuous thought of an answer of why, why did this happen to me again? I found answers in the angry music i listened to, but most of all i found an answer in God and my friends. I had friends telling me to fight for what i want, but in all honesty, why fight for something when it can cause unhappiness to the people that will be effected by it.
This questioning went by for a few days until last night, when i sat here just talking to the the girl that i liked, or maybe still do, but at this same time, i was talking to God. I started listening to all the worship song ive learned to love, the ones we played and sang at porch. I felt joy and hope, something i havent felt in a few days. It was amazing, i was crying and just praying. The song Everything by Tim Hughes got me the most.
I think in this life we focus on too much of what we want instead of what we need. I found the hope that he was giving me all along, and it was mind blowing. Our focus should be on the positive things in this life, mine specifically is praising God. That is something i will never give up. So with this new hope, i will become better. My hurt is still there, not from just this week, but life. We need to push on with this life, dont fall into the negative.
[Ezekiel 36:26-28] - I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you.
I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
And I will put My spirit in you and move you to follow My decrees and be careful to keep My laws.
You will live in the land I gave to your forefathers.
You will be my people and I will be your God.
Earlier this week, i met someone who im actually becoming pretty good friends with it, but it didnt start as just friends. I started talking to her, and i began to fall for her, pretty hard actually. Even though i barely knew her i still had those feelings. Now, i only hung out with her once, and it was amazing and everything i wanted it to be, but it ended up not working a day or so later. She ended up liking someone else, which now i am completely okay with but at the time i wasnt too happy.
That night i stayed up all night thinking about things and walking home from my friends house at 5:30 in the morning to catch a sunrise. After sleeping and waking up later in the day my emotions were just a wreck. i felt like being alone, i felt like i wasnt wanted by anyone, so i layed in in continuous thought of an answer of why, why did this happen to me again? I found answers in the angry music i listened to, but most of all i found an answer in God and my friends. I had friends telling me to fight for what i want, but in all honesty, why fight for something when it can cause unhappiness to the people that will be effected by it.
This questioning went by for a few days until last night, when i sat here just talking to the the girl that i liked, or maybe still do, but at this same time, i was talking to God. I started listening to all the worship song ive learned to love, the ones we played and sang at porch. I felt joy and hope, something i havent felt in a few days. It was amazing, i was crying and just praying. The song Everything by Tim Hughes got me the most.
I think in this life we focus on too much of what we want instead of what we need. I found the hope that he was giving me all along, and it was mind blowing. Our focus should be on the positive things in this life, mine specifically is praising God. That is something i will never give up. So with this new hope, i will become better. My hurt is still there, not from just this week, but life. We need to push on with this life, dont fall into the negative.
[Ezekiel 36:26-28] - I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you.
I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
And I will put My spirit in you and move you to follow My decrees and be careful to keep My laws.
You will live in the land I gave to your forefathers.
You will be my people and I will be your God.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Do You Still See Me As Beautiful?
So ive gotten to spend about 80% of this day bottled up in my room, free to sit in boredom all day. Towards the end of this day though, ive gotten around to thinking about some things. I sat here and listened to Hundredth's album called When Will We Surrender, and i thought as people, why do we always fall face first and pretty much dig ourselves in huge holes we cant seem to escape.
Thinking about that, i always realized that we are all loved. Through all the dirt and garbage in our lives we are loved, and that goes for any person in this world, God loves us all. It also seems though its so hard to look past our own defeats. I know how hard it is to be down and how hard it is to pull yourself back up, its something that nobody thinks about when they're in such a slump. It would be great to see through all pain and say things will get better, even in all seriousness it will, but we fail to see past the bad.
I think we are all seen as beautiful in Gods eyes. Yes we may do wrong, but we are by no means perfect. This world fills our minds with what it tells us to be instead of us choosing what we want to be. With that its nearly impossible to see past our imperfection. I want to be able to spread the joy of Christ, so the people that find Christ see past all this imperfection and realize we arent perfect. I want people to see themselves down and be able o get back up on their own two feet and push forward with God with them. I want hope to be spread to those who need it the post.
Lets not let this world bring us down, instead lets stand together and bring it up.
Remove our worthless idols, wreck our pride-Hundredth.
Thinking about that, i always realized that we are all loved. Through all the dirt and garbage in our lives we are loved, and that goes for any person in this world, God loves us all. It also seems though its so hard to look past our own defeats. I know how hard it is to be down and how hard it is to pull yourself back up, its something that nobody thinks about when they're in such a slump. It would be great to see through all pain and say things will get better, even in all seriousness it will, but we fail to see past the bad.
I think we are all seen as beautiful in Gods eyes. Yes we may do wrong, but we are by no means perfect. This world fills our minds with what it tells us to be instead of us choosing what we want to be. With that its nearly impossible to see past our imperfection. I want to be able to spread the joy of Christ, so the people that find Christ see past all this imperfection and realize we arent perfect. I want people to see themselves down and be able o get back up on their own two feet and push forward with God with them. I want hope to be spread to those who need it the post.
Lets not let this world bring us down, instead lets stand together and bring it up.
Remove our worthless idols, wreck our pride-Hundredth.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Hang In There Bobcat
Today while on a bike ride things werent going as well as they usually are for me and my group of friends. Issues started popping up, a chain breaking miles from home, falling off a bike, having a peddle fall off miles from home, even hurrying home to give some need to a kitten we rescued from under a bush( pretty eventful day i know). Through all of this though, my mood was just dropping from good to bad, i was getting angry, i was tired and i just wanted to be home. This all didnt hit me until my peddle fell off, how mad i was getting and the stupid things i said.
I hate getting angry, but its a trait we all carry. I yelled at my bestfriend over a band audition. I may feel like our friendship dwindles sometimes but i still love the guy and will always be there for him. Walking my one peddle bike up the trail i was able to get in some thinking time.
Thinking time is great, i thought about as much as i could. I prayed walking up this trail, i prayed for everyhing to get better, that this whole anger thing just go away and leave. I felt relieved i was able to just have a little time to talk to God on that bike trail. My life isnt terrible, but when things keep pile-ling up as they were i tend to start feeling like im hopeless. I love God for everything he does, i love him for simply existing. I love my friends, i may have my bad times with them but the good times always outnumber the bad. So even though i may have considered today bad, it was also good.
Got to love rambling blogging.
John 3:30-He must become greater, and i must become less.
I hate getting angry, but its a trait we all carry. I yelled at my bestfriend over a band audition. I may feel like our friendship dwindles sometimes but i still love the guy and will always be there for him. Walking my one peddle bike up the trail i was able to get in some thinking time.
Thinking time is great, i thought about as much as i could. I prayed walking up this trail, i prayed for everyhing to get better, that this whole anger thing just go away and leave. I felt relieved i was able to just have a little time to talk to God on that bike trail. My life isnt terrible, but when things keep pile-ling up as they were i tend to start feeling like im hopeless. I love God for everything he does, i love him for simply existing. I love my friends, i may have my bad times with them but the good times always outnumber the bad. So even though i may have considered today bad, it was also good.
Got to love rambling blogging.
John 3:30-He must become greater, and i must become less.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Messing up
We all mess up, sometime in our lives. For me there is not a day that goes by when i don't mess up. It's a constant thing that we are all going to have to deal with in our lives.
Now a lot of us strive to be this perfect imaginative model that we see in our minds, we push ourselves to be something we're not while hiding everything thats inside of us. As a people with so many temptations in this world, i can tell you from experience that you are going to slip, you are going to make big, little or whatever size mistakes you make. The thing is though, whatever the problem may be, you should build up the will power to pick yourself up and carry on.
I see so many people everyday that strive to be perfect, and to me, that is a mistake. People trying to fit in, hiding themselves with these walls that are so thick they let no one in. As a person who see's this everyday, and as a person who see's everyone's mistakes, i can say i make the same mistakes as everyone else.
So heres a new goal, push yourself to be more of who you really are no matter the situation. Also, no matter what the mistake is, pick yourself up and carry on, don't let it weigh you down.
Acts 2:28 You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.
Now a lot of us strive to be this perfect imaginative model that we see in our minds, we push ourselves to be something we're not while hiding everything thats inside of us. As a people with so many temptations in this world, i can tell you from experience that you are going to slip, you are going to make big, little or whatever size mistakes you make. The thing is though, whatever the problem may be, you should build up the will power to pick yourself up and carry on.
I see so many people everyday that strive to be perfect, and to me, that is a mistake. People trying to fit in, hiding themselves with these walls that are so thick they let no one in. As a person who see's this everyday, and as a person who see's everyone's mistakes, i can say i make the same mistakes as everyone else.
So heres a new goal, push yourself to be more of who you really are no matter the situation. Also, no matter what the mistake is, pick yourself up and carry on, don't let it weigh you down.
Acts 2:28 You have made known to me the paths of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
This One Is For Highschool
So in my school, a lot of stuff seems to go around. People are always sticking their heads in something, always being unhappy with themselves and all that useless stuff that comes along with school. Now as much as i have come to almost hate my school, i still find something there that is worth writing about.
Im about to use a word i hate, and that word is drama. Hopefully im not the only one who thinks that word is a tad immature on its own. So many younger people like myself, have their heads on half backwards. By saying that im simply saying they dont think hard enough about what they are doing. Some people, butt into other peoples business, some think fighting solves every problem, some probably think burning their enemies house down is a probable option. I really wish people would just think about how dumb some situations they get into really are.
People lose friendships over things that arent even important on what you're going to be doing into the future. As young as we are, we have no idea what is going to be coming our way, so my advice for everyone who loves to get into something, is to simply stay out and focus on what you want to do. Also, to those who get caught in the middle of it, just ignore it, that stuff shouldnt be worth a minute of your wonderful day.
So to my very few followers, the ones in high school still will understand this, and the ones in college might laugh and say yeah i like being older and away from all that. So yeah bible verse time? I think so.
Philippians 4:1 Therefore my brothers and sisters, you whom i love and long for, my joy and crown, stand firm in the Lord in this way, dear friends!
Im about to use a word i hate, and that word is drama. Hopefully im not the only one who thinks that word is a tad immature on its own. So many younger people like myself, have their heads on half backwards. By saying that im simply saying they dont think hard enough about what they are doing. Some people, butt into other peoples business, some think fighting solves every problem, some probably think burning their enemies house down is a probable option. I really wish people would just think about how dumb some situations they get into really are.
People lose friendships over things that arent even important on what you're going to be doing into the future. As young as we are, we have no idea what is going to be coming our way, so my advice for everyone who loves to get into something, is to simply stay out and focus on what you want to do. Also, to those who get caught in the middle of it, just ignore it, that stuff shouldnt be worth a minute of your wonderful day.
So to my very few followers, the ones in high school still will understand this, and the ones in college might laugh and say yeah i like being older and away from all that. So yeah bible verse time? I think so.
Philippians 4:1 Therefore my brothers and sisters, you whom i love and long for, my joy and crown, stand firm in the Lord in this way, dear friends!
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Our Aspects
While sitting here listening to Aaron Gillespie, im finding myself feeling loved by Christ. I just cant help but think about my life while listening to this while having that feeling. I feel like all the bad things that have happened, have just made me need Jesus even more, have just made me want to worship more, have made me want to do what ive always planned on doing. But do be brutally honest with myself, sometimes ive fallen short of following like i should. I sat here listening to nineofive cover with everything, just in tears. I saw the bad things ive done and just felt ashamed, but at the same time forgiven. I want to be able to carry on with my goals, to worship and to need Christ.
New aspects have come into my life, not just after this but even before. New people, new feelings, just more to think about. Some are good, some are bad. No matter the feeling i know what i have to do, i just need the will power to follow everything in my life i want to accomplish.
I feel loved, and just forgiven, God deserves all the praises we can send up, Happy Easter.
Such a jump post.
Ezekiel 36: 28-28 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; i will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And i will put my spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. Then you will live in the land i gave your ancestors;you will be my people, and i will be your God.
New aspects have come into my life, not just after this but even before. New people, new feelings, just more to think about. Some are good, some are bad. No matter the feeling i know what i have to do, i just need the will power to follow everything in my life i want to accomplish.
I feel loved, and just forgiven, God deserves all the praises we can send up, Happy Easter.
Such a jump post.
Ezekiel 36: 28-28 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; i will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. And i will put my spirit in you and move you to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. Then you will live in the land i gave your ancestors;you will be my people, and i will be your God.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
This World
This world has so many ways of being able to pull us from what our heart really desires. Most of us live in confusion, we dwell on things, make bad decisions, do things we will regret for the rest of our lives. We are a loved people though, that i am sure of. As many times i have messed up, i know ive been forgiven. Everyone slips from what they are aiming for, there will always be a set back, as negative as that sounds. So here lets make it positive, instead of letting that set back take us down numerous times again and again, why cant we find the power to overcome it and pull ourselves together.
Ive almost grown to hate so many things i do, when i do something im ashamed for im always asking that same question, why did i do it? I may have found that answer, for me at least. This is a very simple meaning and message. I think, we get so involved in these worldly things, that we forget where our heart it. Its that simple.
I hope as believers in Christ, one day we will over come that simple little thing i mentioned. I hope we actually put our hearts on to the right things. Jesus forgives us, there is no doubt about that. So lets take this intentional sin out of our lives and push on to better things.
Philippians 3:7 But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ.
Ive almost grown to hate so many things i do, when i do something im ashamed for im always asking that same question, why did i do it? I may have found that answer, for me at least. This is a very simple meaning and message. I think, we get so involved in these worldly things, that we forget where our heart it. Its that simple.
I hope as believers in Christ, one day we will over come that simple little thing i mentioned. I hope we actually put our hearts on to the right things. Jesus forgives us, there is no doubt about that. So lets take this intentional sin out of our lives and push on to better things.
Philippians 3:7 But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Lets raise the bar a little
We all live in a world that glorifies things such as sex, drugs, even excess amounts of money just to get a good image. Some of us that are Christians fall into temptation everyday from some of these earthly things. We live loosely, and what i mean by that is we walk around with weak minds and we fall in the same hole over and over again.
So my plan for myself is to raise the bar in my own Christian world. Instead of falling into the same hole, trying desperately to pull my self out, i will attempt to find the strength to jump over this hole. There are so many different situations we face everyday. There are so many things we do that we regret and feel guilt for, i say we make an attempt to stop it.
God's love is all around us, no matter what we do, or where we go, its always there. Now lets make it one of our goals to remember this. As Christians, we should want to raise the bar and pursue a life with Jesus instead of falling into these what i call holes. So many things are running through my mind right now about this topic, if i explained this all it would take forever to read.
So to sum this possibly confusing post up, let me say this. Jesus loves us, he knows we are going to sin and make mistakes, but still i believe he would want us to raise our awareness, so that we dont fall into sin. With all these tempting things around us, its going to be hard. I believe though we can make a good attempt on it, so that one day we live peacefully and happy with Jesus. The link im going to post below is one of the guys who inspires me the most to worship God, i hope he inspires you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dHAgaE3X-g
So my plan for myself is to raise the bar in my own Christian world. Instead of falling into the same hole, trying desperately to pull my self out, i will attempt to find the strength to jump over this hole. There are so many different situations we face everyday. There are so many things we do that we regret and feel guilt for, i say we make an attempt to stop it.
God's love is all around us, no matter what we do, or where we go, its always there. Now lets make it one of our goals to remember this. As Christians, we should want to raise the bar and pursue a life with Jesus instead of falling into these what i call holes. So many things are running through my mind right now about this topic, if i explained this all it would take forever to read.
So to sum this possibly confusing post up, let me say this. Jesus loves us, he knows we are going to sin and make mistakes, but still i believe he would want us to raise our awareness, so that we dont fall into sin. With all these tempting things around us, its going to be hard. I believe though we can make a good attempt on it, so that one day we live peacefully and happy with Jesus. The link im going to post below is one of the guys who inspires me the most to worship God, i hope he inspires you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2dHAgaE3X-g
Monday, February 28, 2011
This Life
This life we live everyday often can bring us down in a heartbeat. There are many people out there that very negative views on our world and the people that live here. There is always that person, the one that cares to much about there appearance, the one that cares about there social status. Im here to kinda say, those days should come to an end.
I wish people would wake up in the morning and just be happy they are here. Some of our lives arent bad at all yet we complain and put things down. I wish there was just those few people like this that would stand up for everything thats right, to say they will put an end to that and have a new life. Yes i understand we all complain, we all feel the same emotions as other, but what happens when we channel them differently?
We have a God in this world that cares about us, no matter what. Some reading this may not agree, but its my belief and i hold it to myself unless i feel a chance to speak the word.(im happy to talk to anyone about it if they want it) But yes He loves us. These negative thoughts only bring more unwanted hate into this world. I want people to take a stand, proclaim a positive thought process, bring joy to yourself and if you have the same beliefs i do then speak the word of God.
We have one life, lets not spend it worrying and suffering in hatred and guilt. LIVE POSITVE.
I wish people would wake up in the morning and just be happy they are here. Some of our lives arent bad at all yet we complain and put things down. I wish there was just those few people like this that would stand up for everything thats right, to say they will put an end to that and have a new life. Yes i understand we all complain, we all feel the same emotions as other, but what happens when we channel them differently?
We have a God in this world that cares about us, no matter what. Some reading this may not agree, but its my belief and i hold it to myself unless i feel a chance to speak the word.(im happy to talk to anyone about it if they want it) But yes He loves us. These negative thoughts only bring more unwanted hate into this world. I want people to take a stand, proclaim a positive thought process, bring joy to yourself and if you have the same beliefs i do then speak the word of God.
We have one life, lets not spend it worrying and suffering in hatred and guilt. LIVE POSITVE.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Taking a turn.
I usually go by my own advice by saying you should accept a friend no matter what the changes are, but this time it bothered me to the point where i couldn't accept it. Things just started falling apart in this friendship, drugs, lies and walls. I just recently stopped myself from trying to do drugs. I realized that i like to live for God, i cant really do that stoned.
So this problem between friends rooted from something more than just a little bit of arguing. I watched my best friend be completely torn down by this girl while dating he dated her. I watched her slump down more too. This could have been the start of her change, that has now brought us to where we are now. she thinks so many things that arent really here, i wish she would see some light in all of this. As friends we told her, and she failed to listen.
Im pretty much done with me and her's friendship. i know who my friends are at the moment, shes not one of them. I have great things right now, this loss of a friend wont bring me down. I got my bestfriend always with me, i got this girl that i like, and even though i like her i can come to her as a friend as well, im even making new friends and building more with other people as well.
This can be the start of something new, this week has a been a little heavy on my heart and i know God is helping me. Its taking a big turn and i can tell its for the better. The prayers said yesterday were answered, and now i just want to embrace this life i have and build for the good.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Something Inside.
If you are someone like me, you have a lot of different feelings all the time. Sometimes, these are feelings that stay inside of you forever, refusing to leave even though you try to push them out as hard as you can. Anticipation is such a strong feeling, to me this is like waiting for something you're not sure is going to happen.
Anticipation is in us, and sometimes we fail to realize. We wait and wait, anticipating something great we really want to happen, and then...it doesn't happen and we are left with sorrow. A lot of search for someone, to make us happier than we normally are, we look and look and look and sometimes we come up empty handed. We only have one question, and that question is why?
Our search for someone or something that makes us happy is never ending. The anticipation for something amazing in our lives never goes away, it sticks to us like glue. Its always in the back of your mind, refusing to leave. Im starting to think maybe this is me just being my weird old self, but i cant be sure. For my friends that know me, they know how i am, how i think, how i act towards different things. I really wish i could just let go of my worries and anticipation for my wants. I wish i could look at things on the brighter side, i really want to.
I should just be happy im alive, instead of letting my worries and wants flood through me every day.
Matthew 6:31-32
Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing? For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
Anticipation is in us, and sometimes we fail to realize. We wait and wait, anticipating something great we really want to happen, and then...it doesn't happen and we are left with sorrow. A lot of search for someone, to make us happier than we normally are, we look and look and look and sometimes we come up empty handed. We only have one question, and that question is why?
Our search for someone or something that makes us happy is never ending. The anticipation for something amazing in our lives never goes away, it sticks to us like glue. Its always in the back of your mind, refusing to leave. Im starting to think maybe this is me just being my weird old self, but i cant be sure. For my friends that know me, they know how i am, how i think, how i act towards different things. I really wish i could just let go of my worries and anticipation for my wants. I wish i could look at things on the brighter side, i really want to.
I should just be happy im alive, instead of letting my worries and wants flood through me every day.
Matthew 6:31-32
Do not worry then, saying, 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear for clothing? For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Some good Ole Boredom.
Have you ever thought what it would be like if your life was a movie? You're the main character in some sticky situation you want to get out of or better yet whatever roll you want to play. A lot of us view things in repetitive manners, just like a movie.
If you watch enough movies, you can start predicting the story lines to a lot of other films. I kinda think some people look at there lives like that. We do the same things every day and eventually we can guess what is going to happen the next day and the next day and so forth.
What if we were challenged to live differently every day? To explore something new, to break another wall in our lives. Instead of living like we are in some repetitive movie, why don't we step out of our comfort zones and live like we are going to die in any minute. If you think about that last statement its very true.
So i kinda wanna try this for myself. I want to try to be more out there, not to myself all the time. I want to do things different maybe, not have everything the same. For the people that are going to read this, i kinda hope you would want to try this as well. It probably will be a little hard, but it could be interesting eh?
John 3:30-He must become greater, and i must become less.
If you watch enough movies, you can start predicting the story lines to a lot of other films. I kinda think some people look at there lives like that. We do the same things every day and eventually we can guess what is going to happen the next day and the next day and so forth.
What if we were challenged to live differently every day? To explore something new, to break another wall in our lives. Instead of living like we are in some repetitive movie, why don't we step out of our comfort zones and live like we are going to die in any minute. If you think about that last statement its very true.
So i kinda wanna try this for myself. I want to try to be more out there, not to myself all the time. I want to do things different maybe, not have everything the same. For the people that are going to read this, i kinda hope you would want to try this as well. It probably will be a little hard, but it could be interesting eh?
John 3:30-He must become greater, and i must become less.
Good Stuff
My future days are going to be filled with greatness, i dont plan on letting much stop that. Everyone needs to be happy, sadness is not the way to go in life. Psalm 139:23, 24..Search me God, and know my heart; test me and my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (:
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Music
Im curious to know why certain genres of music click to people. When i think about it, it almost seems stereotypical, like there are hardcore kids, scene kids, kids that listen to rap and kids that listen to mainly mainstream. Sometimes its like we split ourselves up depending on what type of music we listen to.
Its interesting that we do that. Music sometimes influences people like no other. Me for example, i always have music on, its what i do pretty much all day. So its very obvious on how we react to music, we need it. I wanna know what music does for people. Does it make you happy? Does it calm you down when you're mad? Is it your escape? Anyone can answer yes to all my questions. Religion and Music rule our world.
Its interesting that we do that. Music sometimes influences people like no other. Me for example, i always have music on, its what i do pretty much all day. So its very obvious on how we react to music, we need it. I wanna know what music does for people. Does it make you happy? Does it calm you down when you're mad? Is it your escape? Anyone can answer yes to all my questions. Religion and Music rule our world.
Again
As i sit here finishing whats left of my hot pocket, ive realized im filled with guilt again. Guilt over what ive done, it just feels like the walls are closing in on me and i have no escape. I wish i hand would come up out of nowhere, just so i have hope to get out of this black pit. I hate my lustful thoughts, i want them to be gone so they cant harm me anymore.
Its this race im running with myself, nobody else but me. Im constantly struggling, i wish i had a helping hand. Its making me crazy and i can feel it. Im letting myself down again, letting whoever is around me down. I WANT THESE THOUGHTS GONE FOREVER. They are hurting me.
A Sick Day
So being sick kind of sucks. The thing thats worse than being sick though is the boredom that comes with staying home from school. My plans for today are pretty much repetitive, im going to sit here, listen to say anything and think about things that float around in my confusing mind. I got a lot off yesterday by starting this blog, im kind of glad i was introduced to it by my friends.
This post though, is mostly out of boredom since i have nothing to do. Ive already commented random statuses on facebook for some entertainment, but thats not really fun anymore. Maybe i'll watch some movies today, write some music and practice some good old drums. Really fun time here.
This post though, is mostly out of boredom since i have nothing to do. Ive already commented random statuses on facebook for some entertainment, but thats not really fun anymore. Maybe i'll watch some movies today, write some music and practice some good old drums. Really fun time here.
Monday, February 7, 2011
My mistakes
I get so overwhelmed with myself sometimes. I get frustrated, annoyed and filled with guilt over some of my decisions. I also always find myself running in circles over what i want to do. Every day my mind is filled with the same thoughts, and going through my day at school they only get worse.
I often blame some of the things i do for the things i don't have. For example me not being in a relationship because of something i did that day. Now i dont believe in karma for those that will read this and say its karma. I could care less what it is. Back to the point, i hate that train of thought. It's not even a truth, my mind is just making it up as an excuse and i dont understand it.
I look at myself and sometimes think im not good enough, i think "oh hey my body is in a weird shape, im not as good as a drummer as i want to be, oh and i dont fit into this t-shirt right. Its just a little too long". I dont want these thoughts taking over me everyday as they do most days. For the longest time i thought i was a little crazy, but that could also be because of the amounts of say anything i listen to sometimes.
I feel like i should be closer to God, but i always think of things in this world that dont matter, and they stop me. I want to be able to say "this isnt going to stop me from being closer with God", but sometimes it does stop me. I want to have a new start, write a whole new chapter in my life. I want to worship God, i want to be there for all my friends no matter what the gossip is on there minds. I want to notice a mistake and flaw of mine and turn it into something beautiful, and thats what im going to try to do.
This post was mostly ramble of whats on my mind and what pulls me down, but i know these things wont hurt me any longer. My mind will be spirit filled and i will be happy, no more sadness and frustration. I know i can turn it all around.
I often blame some of the things i do for the things i don't have. For example me not being in a relationship because of something i did that day. Now i dont believe in karma for those that will read this and say its karma. I could care less what it is. Back to the point, i hate that train of thought. It's not even a truth, my mind is just making it up as an excuse and i dont understand it.
I look at myself and sometimes think im not good enough, i think "oh hey my body is in a weird shape, im not as good as a drummer as i want to be, oh and i dont fit into this t-shirt right. Its just a little too long". I dont want these thoughts taking over me everyday as they do most days. For the longest time i thought i was a little crazy, but that could also be because of the amounts of say anything i listen to sometimes.
I feel like i should be closer to God, but i always think of things in this world that dont matter, and they stop me. I want to be able to say "this isnt going to stop me from being closer with God", but sometimes it does stop me. I want to have a new start, write a whole new chapter in my life. I want to worship God, i want to be there for all my friends no matter what the gossip is on there minds. I want to notice a mistake and flaw of mine and turn it into something beautiful, and thats what im going to try to do.
This post was mostly ramble of whats on my mind and what pulls me down, but i know these things wont hurt me any longer. My mind will be spirit filled and i will be happy, no more sadness and frustration. I know i can turn it all around.
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